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Hari ke-6 RMO #covid Suppose i feel 2020 should be the best year of my life. After drama, drama, drama from the past marriage i do feel something good will happen this year.. but again semua kuasa Allah. Aku dah lama divorced and move on... Move on? Senang cakap, senang nak nasihat, tapi nak hadap? Kalau weak memang boleh rujuk. But i decided not to. Tak tau mana datang strong tu. Bila kau dah rasa selesa dengan the marriage tu, expectation, financial, the kids, holidays, the home, the future plan.. tup tap tup tap.. raya sorang, makan sorang, holiday sorang.. totally feel lost.. ground yg kau dah establish for 17 years pappp camtu je hilang bila mana lafaz ‘aku ceraikan kau ......’ Dunia aku tak rasa runtuh pun masa ex aku lafazkan cerai.. it was easy sebab aku taknak dipujuk, aku  dah penat and aku dah give up.... lepas keluar court aku drive then  aku terus masuk office sambung keje.. masa keje tak rasa.. bila dah malam aku balik umah, bila dah loneliness...

Selamat Hari Raya 2016. Semoga anak-anak membesar dengan kesihatan yang baik dan kegembiraan berpanjangan.

Selamat Hari Raya! Nampak macam well prepared je bila tengok kaler baju raya tahun nie kann.. Padahal terjah Jakel petang sebelum raya. Husband suh beli baju kaler hijau. Jenuh menggelupur carik baju kaler hijau last2 sekali bila tengok pic husband pakai kaler biru. Motif? Nasib baik tudung kaler biru tua. Raya tahun ni walaupun tanpa suami kat di sisi gigih gak drive balik kampung belah suami kat johor. Bebudak request nak balik johor sebab katanya lebih meriah, lebih suasana kampung, lebih banyak duit raya . Me ok jer.. Dah jadi ibu memang anak2 my priorities. Apa yang buat mereka happy aku pun happy je. Location tangkap gambar ni memang favourite rumah aku kalau balik johor. Dia punya hospitality memang tip top. Makanan banyak dan sedap2! So kesempatan ni aku nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada kawan2 blog merangkap kawan2 sekolah jugak sebenarnya dan juga kepada silent reader yang suka sangat baca blog aku yang suam suam kuku ni. Doakan aku ada mood nak menulis ...

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Putting some spark back in my marriage need a lot of work. I have conclude that spending quality time with my husband is the best way. Instead of purchase birthday gift for my husband, i opted something that benefit to both of us. So here we were last Merdeka Day. Quick 1 night trip without the kids .. Explore the resort, snapping pictures, enjoy their SPA, dinner, life bands.. The best part is the room and the worst is their SPA and parking... Dinner and breakfast buffet is good. We didn't join any activity provided by the resort (FOC) as we just love being in our room.. Top activity around is cycling since fishing isn't allowed at all.. I was this close to borrow fishing rods from my friend!  Overall it is a refreshing trip before my husband fly back to Labuan and me doing the routine life.. We have a long discussion to see whether it is a wise decision if me and the kids followed him too... Right now, i'm doing my best and ALLAH will do the re...

I have been here for almost 4 years to date. My view is facing my Financial Controller office (whom has been resign recently) and she is a lady. I can see people walk in to her office being scolded, being promoted, being compliment, being entertain etc.. This cubicle / workstation has been also witness my life struggling for that period of time.. For the time being i don't feel like to tender any resignation letter. Yes i finally find my comfort zone, my security zone in here. I have less monday blues, less stress ( she is resign, remember ? ) and the important thing i can manage my own workload. Does it sounds good? Hope so... for the moment..

Mood to refurbish the blog tiba-tiba.. So here it is..

Wah tajuk! Lepak katanya. Lepas seminggu raya terus shoot pegi Kuching. Pegi 3 hari 2 malam check in kat Citadines Uplands Kuching. Serviced apartment 2 bilik located 15 minutes drive from airport. Amik tour guide pakai van since total group kitaorang 13 orang. Sehari RM180 start 9am abis tour pukul 9pm plus airport transfer. Dia bawak kitaorang pegi Crocodile Farm, Kampung Budaya, Waterfront, Muzium, Pasar Serikin, Masjid Negeri & Satok. Makan kat sana kalau sekali makan kitaorang satu group tak lebih RM100. Tapi tak pegi makan seafood kat Top Spot (tak sure ejaan) since ramai sangat anak kecik which resulted bila petang je memasing dah cranky kepenatan. So malam memang kitaorang masak kat apartment. Oh ya - Kitaorang naik flight pakai kerusi roda. Jenuh nak dapat info pasal wheelchair. Last2 tolak masuk cam biasa macam pakai stroller. Tapi masa kat airport Kuching nak balik KL wheelchair kene tagging. Overall kuching best. Ada seafood, boleh tengok nature, belaj...

Raya tahun ni tema pink.. Tak dapat nak tangkap gambar satu family sebab memasing pepagi raya dah moody.. So bila memasing tak moody barula dapat tangkap gambar asing2 yang ada sedikit ceria.. Raya tahun ni memang macam selalu lah.. Ke arah Johor dulu dari hari sabtu sampai rabu..  Menu wajib burasak dan beriyani hasil air tangan pak sedara Yen yang memang pandai masak..  Hari jumaat baru balik Banting sampai hari sabtu.. Kebetulan pulak semua pakat kumpul hari sabtu so makcik aku rajinla pulak nak buat nasi ambeng.. Makan ramai2 dalam satu daun pisang memang layan habis la.. Terkeluar segala mak bapak peluh dengan kepedasan sambal jawa.. Gambar aku ngan adik kat tangga rumah arwah atok aku.. Dulu masa kecik2 umur aku 8 tahun memang meriah rumah ni tapi lepas tu langsung tak meriah takde sapa jaga umah ni. Bila makcik Siti aku dok umah ni baru la start happening balik.. Sebab masing2 dah beranak pinak dan anak2 sedara aku yang dulu kecik2 pun dah besar p...

dah lama tak update blog suddenly feel nak update membuak-buak.. padahal mengantuk gila dok semalam main futsal sampai kul 12 malam dahtu sampai umah dekat pukul 1.. on leave 3 hari isnin sampai rabu aleh2 balik office keje bertingkek tingkek.. sudahnya menggelupur rasa malas nak buat everything layan blog lagi bagus.. by the way selepas hidup penuh ranjau berduri for the past 2 years i will remarried again.. rasa mcm kejap je adjust life jadi single dengan pindah umah, hangkut baju, beli tv, furniture, naik turun makhamah, adjust sekolah/nursery anak2 blablabla.. suddenly nak bercommitment semula.. dah kene start ambil tahu hal pasal partner, what he ACTUALLY likes / hate towards me nak kene ubah nak follow dia punya request, nak kene bagitau pi mana nak buat apa, financial planning bersama, nak pregnant lagi (request by him!), nak kene jadi holiday planner lagi.. ohh tetiba jadi stress. nyesal pulak update blog. tambah stress gua!

Trip legoland paling dinanti2kan oleh bebudak. Dah berapa kali kene postpone sampai la confirm bulan ni baru dapat pegi. Cecah bumi legoland pukul 10:30 pagi memang panas gila (Tip : Datang awal elak beartur beli tiket). Bebudak dahla before this hangus terbakar masa bawak pegi mandi manda kat Desa Waterpark. Belum fully badan balik ton asal dah belasah pegi Legoland. Memang berkilat2 la memasing. Sampai sana memang tak ramai orang semua ride waiting time 5 minit below. Lepas beli tiket terus pegi sewa stroller. Single harga RM30 double kalau tak silap RM50 kot? Tak yah deposit. Siap semua tengok map kitaorang decide amik arah ke kanan dulu.. Kalau amik arah belah kiri dia start dengan ride berunsurkan air.. So pilihla mana suka.. (Tip : Fahamkan betul2 map anda) Ni first ride naik boat. Masa ni cuaca dah start panas tapi maintain lagi. Map kat tangan tu dah hancur buat kipas. (Tip : Tolong bawak kipas tangan ataupun kipas kecik yang ada bateri) Masa anak syok main aku baca ...

2 - 3 menjak ni kerja jadi priority. Bila fikir kerja 24 jam, makan pun jadi tunggang langgang. Dalam kepala bagi anak makan kenyang2 dulu baru fikir diri sendiri. Bila anak dah kenyang di ajak nya aku main memangla sempat 2-3 suap je masuk mulut. Lepas dah main nak susu nak tidor. Sambil dok dodoi anak terkebil2 pandang syiling dok pikir kerja nak buat esok. Perut dok berkeroncong bunyi mintak makanan. Teringat dalam peti sejuk ada pelam siap weekend hari tu sempat buat cicah pelam - kicap + cili + belacan + gula.. Aduh.. Bila terkenang cicah pelam makin kuat pulak bunyi perut mintak belas ehsan tuan punya badan. Abaikan bunyi perut. Dulu dok diet. Berat 8 bulan lepas 66kg. Bila diet jadik la 63kg. Punyalah hazab 3 kg  nak hilang amik masa lebih 6 bulan. Ke plateau? Ke fat jadi muscle? Ke memang lemak tepu? Sudahnya tadi aku timbang tetiba berat jadi 61+ kg. Wow. Berkali2 naik weight scale kerana tidak percaya. Percayalah?

Malam ni x boleh tidur plak. Panas + takde air = pengsan. Balik kerja terus tido tak sedar pulak takde air. Aleh2 masuk toilet dua tiga titik je keluar. Bukak website Syabas memang betul takde air hari ni. Isk isk isk Soffyia pulak dan2 mintak susu air panas takde. Nasib la ada mineral water. Tercatu2 nak minum air di kala panas2 ni. Lately susah nak tidur malam. Tidur2 ayam pukul 5 pagi baru betul lena pukul 6:30 alarm dah bunyi tapi tak pulak mengantuk kat office. Keje kat office melambak lambak macam tiada esok bagimu. Pagi tadi datang office 8:30 pagi call dah masuk. Client call nak discuss pasal statement account siap tanya aku dah breakfast ke belum. Lunch hour pun break setengah jam je lepas tu pulun buat keja sampai 6 petang terus cabut balik nak fetch Soffyia kat school. Sampai school pukul 6:40 petang tengok anak aku last sekali kat school. Punyalah ingat aku paling awal amik anak. Cheh. Panas betul malam ni weh. Lagi buat tak boleh tido. Terkebil2 tengok tingkap dengan harap...

omg boss not around for a week! tetiba rasa semua kerja boleh hold dan boleh bersuka ria terjah website.. before this dok tuju hp yg alahai tak puas betul screen ceconet nak belek2 sampai kepala dah boleh cecah meja.. over! so whatsup with my life? haha.. interesting enough to share ke? not really.. some story doesn't meant to share aight? he he .. how i wish i can share it all... gila stress kalau org baca.. nak cite cite je la kan.. sorry i is x niat punn.. last month - sept suppose to be our wedding anniversary.. so nak hadap bulan sept tu rasa menyampah sangat.. seriously i kid u not.. date trivia in my life 3rd sept is our couple anni (LOL) and our wed anni fall on 9 sep.. it will be 12th wedding annoversary if this year included! whoa! what a record! a decade of marriage - no wonder we have a lot of fight back then... LOL! anyhow.. i do receive a phone call from my mantan hubs (mantan katanya).. i always wonder why we still act like husb-wife situation.. either i'm not l...

Just now iphone jatuh gedebuk dari ketinggian 150cm atas tiles. Terus show no service. Call out 3g semua fail - dugaan bulan puasa. Terus pegi reset phone balik siap nazar sehari puasa kalau phone ok. Alhamdulillah dah ok T____T  Tak dapat bayangkan hp tak berfungsi di kala waktu raya!

Kebaya moden hannah dah siap dan laju2 aku pi amik kat makcik tailor.. makcik tailor bising2 sebab belum gosok aku dah rembat..tak sanggup nak tunggu buat keje last minute tampal lace tu.. too bad kengkonon nak siapkan jugak weekend tu hari tergendala gak.. lupa pulak nak potong siap2 lace tu.. sudahnya tertembel2 gunting tu pun tak siap sebab kene kacau ngan soffyia.. biasalah mak nak gunting dia pun nak gunting.. sudahnya tunggu anak tido ngan mak2nya bungkus tidur gak.. Projek kurung moden gondol terbengkalai Lace dapat 2 layer beli 2 meter. In total 4 meter nak lekat kat baju bebudak ni Btw tak taula minggu ni boleh siap ke tak.. aku tengah pulun nak closing account ni! mak stresssssssssss.. asal closing je stress, asal stress je closing.. tak penahnya nak aman... tapi harap2 sangat minggu ni boleh settle hal2 baju.. minggu depan dah start nak sengseng lengan baking kuih.. since adik aku tengah praktikal kat umah ni bolehla nak buat kuih.. oven mak pun dah lama ta...

Pegi bukak puasa with fyza and nurin kat flaming steamboat kelmarin. Harga 30/pax untuk buffet seafood dan beberapa makanan lain.. pencucui mulut pun banyak pilihan.. booking same day terus dapat seat.. ya itu yang kita mahukan! tapi bab sos dia kureng la.. untuk penggemar seafood memang sesuai la ber-steamboat kat sini.. seafood choice banyak dan harga berpatutan.. janganla ditanya kenapa muncung cenggitu.. takde lain sebab kalau ketawa confirm muka sekerat T___T

My dear friend Beth has been suggesting the initial idea (thanks) for me to start up with the team building thing. Bernas sungguh  idea mu itu.. i do follow what she suggesting.. bila tang grouping people tu dah cantik dah.. sat lagi time nak pikir activity tu macam stuck sket.. while waiting the idea knocking my head i write a memo for funding request.. about this fund pun my HR gila membebel since this activity doesn't budgeting for this year.. but hey people dont you know the term of over budget ? since the final budget pun submitted for finance boss to review, there is no hassle to explain on overbudget thing.. anyhow do u know how much i ask for ? It's only RM500! Gila perah idea nak buat aktiviti yang kurang mengeluarkan duit.. LOL.. u should look my first activity for them. lots of weird family name submitted.. and some cartoon i never heard before.. LOL.. by the way at first ada la bunyi2 sket among themselves who make this activity like a burden.. ...

Boss give me a non finance task yesterday. Kene buat teambuilding aktiviti untuk my dept for the whole year.. more on monthly basis activity.. T_____T Dahtu task ni pun boleh masuk dalam KPI.. eh eh sesedap je kannnnnnnn... Howwwwwww tell me how.. Brainstorm dalam bilik air dalam kereta still idea2 boring je keluar.... Errrrrrrrr..... Any idea plzzzzzzzzzzzz? Syarat2 teambuilding - mesti dalam office bangunan, limited budget, masa aktiviti after working hour, cant do during closing acc, my job performance cant affected by this task. Outcome : finance staff happy, lower staff turnover T______T

Actually pic taken yesterday. Still montel lagi. Eventough almost 2 month berdiet still tak show any wanted result yet.. Oh my.. Rasa nak give up je on this weight loss journey.. Pagi ni timbang just turun 1kg from 2 month before.. Hanggggggiinn je satu badan.. Tapi takpe aku anggap ini adalah plateau!  Errrrr bukak puasa kang nak beli ayam golek.. Seddapppp... (Diet atkins katanya) LOL 😝